Friday.

Wow. What stressful days are ahead of me. On Friday, I'll be on my way to Haiti again. Crazy right? Sometimes I can't even wrap my mind around that. That I get to see my baby brother on FRIDAY. And its so exciting. But something that is always stressful is the packing. oh boy. 6 suitcases and 2 bookbags for 3 people. Insane right? (Well you could say 4 if you count Lorvens, but he doesn't have to carry all this stuff around). Packing is a big deal because you have to pack well. Your clothes. Lorvens clothes. Lorven's toys. Medicine. Sunscreen. Bug spray. and so so so much more you wouldn't believe. There is almost 2 full suitcases of donations. Which we are so thankful for. Because right now, the orphanage is in desperate need of supplies. They basically have nothing left. With the diapers, clothes, formula, shampoo, and much more, hopefully the supplies we give will help keep the orphanage going for a while. Now. alot of people think, "Why can't you just give them money?" Well. Things in haiti are 20 times more expensive than here. So you can get tons more stuff from here than you could get there. Which is crazy because no one is Haiti has money so how can they afford all this stuff? Well they really can't at all. Which is why we need to help them. Other people ask, "Why can't you just ship the stuff to Haiti?" Well, the ports in Haiti are very coruppt and most things would be stollen there and never reach the orphanage. So. We have to take them there ourselves. And a lot of people ask me to describe the orphanage. Well. heres my best description. Its gated around, so no one bad can get it. When you pull up, the outside of the orphanage has painted handprints and a large deck in the front. The kids are climbing the gate around the deck to see us. They look so happy. Then you walk in. It looks pretty nice. Theres a long hallway. The first door on your left, leads to the toddler room. Where there is always at least 4 kids screaming and crying. Once you walk in that room, you instantly have up to 4 kids on your lap. With about 5 others sitting on the floor crying because they want to be held. You can't leave without them crying begging you to come back. But if you leave, you go back into that hallway. On your right, you see a bathroom, and some offices for the people that work at the orphanage. To your left, there is a classroom/eating room. Its about the size of your bedroom. A few colorful ribbons and tables sit there. You keep walking. On your left is the baby room. About 25 babies silently sleeping as the nannies sing hymns to them and pray. Most babies in that room, are special needs and are likely to pass away. If you keep walking straight, theres a door to go outside. Its a big courtyard, the place looks very run down. To your left there is girls braiding eachother's hair, and straight ahead you see boys running around and screaming. You just sit there and look around. Before you know it, kids are starting to play with you, and beg for attention. Its amazing how many games you can play without speaking a single word because they won't understand you. Then you look in the rooms of the kids, and theres bunkbeds with their names on them. They seem so happy for you to be there, and you don't ever want to leave.  You walk upstairs, and see 2 classrooms. And thats it. Thats the orphanage. 70 kids. About 20 nannies. A missionary. And then us. It doesn't seem to nice, but I would stay there with Lorvens if I could. A lot of people also ask what they eat. They get 4 meals a day. Which is pretty good. But. The food quality isn't the greatest. Basically mush everyday. But the kids LOVE it. and beg for  more. Because they all have parasites, so its like they have to feed 2 people. One time when I was feeding Lorvens, a little girl grabbed the plate from my hands, took food, shoved it in her pocket, and ran. Lorvens slapped her right across the face! They take food seriously down there. There was at least 5 kids at all times surrounding me begging for food as I fed Lorvens. It really breaks your heart. And hopefully one day soon they will all have a real home and real parents. <3 :)

10 more days?

^Did that just say 10 more days? I think so. Thats right. Ten more days until I get to see my baby brother again. A lot of people are asking, "Do get you bring home your brother this time?" Well. The answer is sadly no. This is just called a bonding trip, and basically we just spend a few days with Lorvens doing whatever we want to do. It feels like forever ago since I've seen him. But its only been two months. But every night since I've been home from Haiti I sleep with Lorven's stuffed animal. Lame right? Well I don't care. Its a constant reminder that I have a little brother in Haiti that gets to be with us soon. Yes that stuffed animal has dried tears. From the nights of missing him. The nights wondering why he has to be in Haiti where he is suffering. The nightmares, seeing his face when he had to say goodbye and how sad he looked. But now, that stuffed  animal will be covered in tears of joy, knowing that I get to see my brother in ten days. Now, a lot of siblings can't stand eachother. They think they are annoying and want to get away from them. But I can't stand the time Lorvens and I are seperated. Its almost like you don't realize what you have until its taken away from you. And I can't wait to get what I've got stolen from me. I get more time with my 3 year old brother, Lorvens. :)

Why him?

Okay, so. On Wednesday, I was eating lunch. And my friend was complaining about her lunch and just kinda joking around I said, "Well suck it up and eat it. My own brother is starving in Haiti." I didn't really think about what I said, and then. In the middle of Incline. I was sitting there. and it hit me. My brother is starving in Haiti. That little 3 year old boy doesn't deserve what he has. He doesn't get treatment for his parasites until we bring him home. I was very upset, and I often think about him, but never like that. I used to get angry at God, because I was upset that he would let my baby brother be in such a bad condition and not do anything about it. But I thought longer, and then I realized. My family is what is helping my brother.  Even though we can't get him yet, we are getting them out there eventually. Then he will be so blessed like I am and be happier than before. If thats even possible. He doesn't have to live a life in a barely functioning orphanage. He gets to be in America, and I guess that I always asked, "why him?"  But. He is getting the help he needs very soon. And I can't wait until we finally bring him home. :)

Lorvens

Okay. First time blogging. Yay. I don't really know how to do this. I don't even know if I'm doing it right. oh well. Okay. So I'm mainly going to blog about Lorvens, you know, informing everyone about him and everything. But I also might blog about random stuff I've been thinking about. anywhoo. Okay. So if your reading this and are like, who the heck is Lorvens? Well. He's the best kid ever. And he is my brother. But sadly he is still in Haiti. I can't wait until the adoption process is finished and we can finally bring my baby brother home. He is 3 years old and will be 4 in November. He is the happiest boy I've ever met. You give him a ball and his face lights up the room and he is entertained for hours. He has nothing but yet he has such a beautiful smile. I'm going back June 3rd to see him. and I just can't wait. Now, a lot of people have been asking, "When is he coming home?" Well honestly, I have no idea. We were told before Christmas. But then we learned that our paperwork got delayed a good 3 months. Its really upsetting to hear because I just want my brother in America. But, my whole family is hoping for a miracle, which can always happen. This is pretty short but its the basics. I'll blog more later!:)